JUST WANT TO CRY IT OUT!!!

JUST WANT TO CRY IT OUT!!!

Right now, I really want to cry and cry out to God! I felt like I’ve been a useless being since I became this stagnant. For the past few days, I’ve been a disobedient lad. I’ve been reckless in decision making, impatient for simple things, and angry for stuffs that should been handled with patience. Sigh! I admit it, I came to a point of familiarity; I wanted a new encounter but am not doing anything to have that. It’s like I’m walking but has no direction at all.

I’m still thankful to God for pouring out His spirit in me! As I went home this afternoon; full of encouragement from the Victory Weekend (November 29 and 30), I came to a point of self-awareness. God made me realized how lax I was during the past few days. God told me that my attitude isn’t helping me to grow further to Him, instead, it’s driving me away to Him. As I opened my FB account, I saw a friend’s post of the song “THE ANTHEM” by PLANETSHAKERS:

(Lyrics)

Hallelujah! You have WON the VICTORY!!!!
Hallelujah! You have WON it ALL for ME!!!!
DEATH could NOT hold you down!!!!
YOU are the RISEN KING!!!!

I remember the first time I heard this song from a music team practice; I wanted to cry and cry in declaration of the lyrics of the song! This time, as I heard the song again, God gave me a quick revelation that made me cry even more! God has set me free from every bandage that the enemy has placed on me.

Ezekiel 36:26

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

Lord, I’m sorry!! I need a new heart! Cover me with your blood once more and make me new! I’m crying out to you O Lord! I need you! Help me to overcome every situation I’m experiencing! You have won it all for me Lord, you have won the Victory!! I claim it! I declare it!

THE PRIZE OF MY OBEDIENCE….

“When God tells you to do something, no matter how the situation may be against it, just trust God with obedience”, that’s what I’ve learned from this experience. :D This is another testimony of God’s provision in terms of my finances! It’s really amazing how God provides especially in the midst of a very tough situation! The process wasn’t that easy but as I obeyed, God gave me an assurance that HE WILL PROVIDE!! :D

Day1 of Victory Weekend just ended today! It was really a refreshing moment and even though I have been part of it often, it still amazing how God makes every VW’s like it’s my 1^st one!! :D. 1week before the event, God told me to shoulder everything my follow-up would use for the event; that includes his VW Booklets and his Registration. God told me to give it as a gift to him as free, just like SALVATION; also a gift that’s free to everyone who receives it! But saving something has been a difficult task for me since my senior year came; photocopies, thesis, duties, other stuffs, waaaaaaaah! It’s so difficult to save at a time like this… but god wanted me to, for Jun-jun (my follow-up). So again, what I did was I prayed and prayed and gave my tithes and offering during our Wednesday youth service at VCF Lucban. Thursday came and it was so grateful to see how God moved through my finances.. :D but that wasn’t the case. Upon attending at VCF Lucena’s youth service last Thursday, God told me to give everything I have on my wallet to the offering tool; that includes my extra money plus the money I’m saving for the VW. Well, this time I tell you, I was excited to give for I know that God will truly provide (as what he did to me during EN2010). So the weekend came, and Monday; the date for our VW. Again, I was amazed on how I got the amount, it’s like God multiplied my allowance for that! Ahahaha :D. Not just that, I was also able to gain extra time in doing other school stuffs for our accreditation tomorrow plus the fact that I’m doing my thesis and other important school stuffs.

SOME PHOTOS FROM THE VICTORY WEEKEND; 1ST DAY:

registration time..... :))

praise and worship moment!! :))

You'll come, let your glory fall as you respond to us...... (music)

altar call.....

So I guess this is one side of the result of my obedience. God will not only provide you financially, He will also provide you with enough time to finish everything you’re doing. What He did to me, He will also do to you as you OBEY Him!! :D So at this point in time O Lord, you have my trust! I’ll obey you to the extent that I can Lord! Busyness is really on its peak, but I won’t worry! As long as I have you at my side, I’ll have the courage and the confidence to do it all!! :D

photo's taken after the DAY1 of VW... sayang I wasn't able to have a picture with jun-jun. He has to go home na agad eh! :D

Medith, Ate Grace, Adrian and Kl.. :D

MORE THAN ENOUGH

Just got out of the busiest first week of class ever! I thought since it’s the start of the semester, things would start easy. I guess I was wrong after all; it was then that I realized na “Graduating na nga pala ako” ahahaha :D. Since it’s the last semester, things would really be challenging!

Last October, I received a word from God to join this year’s Race For Life. With the help of Faith, I was able to register for the Race. For months, I was preparing financially for the race and the favor was really overflowing. Even though the semestral break came, I was able to save something for the Race :D. I was really excited to go to Manila :D. But the first week of class was harsh. THESIS, DEMO, LECTURES; waaaah! Akala ko ba first week ng class?? ‘Bat ganito?? K Not just that, my budget was cut to half due to my thesis and other school stuffs; PRINT, PHOTOCOPY, TRAVEL, waaaaaah! It’s as if something is hindering me from going to the race. K

I was optimist that God is going to provide everything that I need! The good thing was I finished everything by Friday afternoon, but what bothered me a lot was by budget for the whole weekend. My budget of 1,500 was cut to half (so 750 na lang yun + 20.00 = Php770.00) and I was planning to extend my stay till Sunday. I was really in a mixed emotion back then, I wanted to cry out of fear and anxiety but I know God has a better reason for this. What I did was I prayed while walking in the isle at school with my things; because of financial crisis, my common sense doesn’t want to go to Manila. In my mind, I’m thinking; “huh? I’ll go pa din? 770 na lang money ko, 210 ang fare going to Manila, 420 ang back and forth.. 350 for the whole weekend?? Will I survive?” But God is tellin’ me to! LET YOUR YES BE YES and you NO BE NO. God is above everything so He will be able to sustain your needs all throughout the weekend so DO NOT WORRY! I was still undecided then, sabi ko na lang kay God, “Lord, give me a sign (hahahaha).. I dunno what “sign” it is, but you’ll let me know”.

As I walk to the gate, I saw a jeepney going to Sta. Cruz, Laguna waiting for passengers. Immediately, I rushed into the jeepney without even worrying about tomorrow. God wanted me to go, I need to follow Him! From Lucban (where I’m studying) to Laguna to Manila, I travelled….

PHOTO COURTESY OF:

Erica Faith Andres and Ellis Ben Joseph Cruz

I was able to be a part of Race for Life 2010 (had some snapshots after the event). I even stayed at Victory Pioneer the whole afternoon and were able to extend till sunday and attended at Victory Makati!! :D

The whole week was a blessing in disguise. It was really a weekend to remember! I was able to maximize my stay and was able to extend till Sunday morning! I was blessed on how I see some friends from Pioneer as they grow more with their relationship with God. I was also encouraged upon meeting new friends from Pioneer and Makati! I’m more excited to see them growing more to God! :D God wanted me to go because He wants me to realize something! Everything that happened was a test of TRUST and if I hadn’t trusted God on this one, I think I wouldn’t be able to write this blog not experience His provision on this situation!

By the way, when I returned to Lucban, I only had 3 hours of travel due to Pacquiao’s fight! I also realized something behind that, “Our travel will be smooth once we obey and trust God ALL THE TIME”. Not just that! I was able to save Php20.00 from the entire weekend! God is really great! That makes me wanna love Him more!!!

I REALLY HAD EVERYTHING MORE THAN ENOUGH!