FEELING OF ANXIETY

This feels awkward! What I’m feeling right now is really an unusual thing for me. Well, siguro its because I’ve never felt this feeling before.

7 months more before graduation day and I feel like I’m not yet ready for it. Yeah, I’m studying! I’m doing my best to manage my time in everything but the result doesn’t make sense! My grades are somewhat deteriorating and I’m sitting here at the corner asking why?? L

The results of the July NLE Examinations was released last August 25, 2010. I was alarmed by the percentage of passers who passed the exam. 41.08 % or 4 out of 10 examinees passed the exam! Troubled by the result, I’m having worries and voices starts to knock in my head. Due to the results of my grade today, I might not pass the exam (Oh God! This is a lie!!)

One more thing. I’m having a hard time in discipleship. I can’t find a spare time for establishing victory group at school due to only 2 days of class. Most of my time are being used in a full load class on Mondays and Tuesdays, and my duty Wednesdays to Fridays. I know I shouldn’t think about this but I can’t help it. I’m a senior and soon, I’ll be leaving school without passing the baton to the next generation (Oh God! I need to get over this!). L

Am I just pressured? Or am I demeaned by unfruitfulness in some portion of my life?

I dunno why but all I know is that I’m anxious.

Is it a fact that I have to accept? Or is it an attack that I need to reject?

Oh God! I’m confused K

“You made known to me the path of life; you fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand” –Psalm 16:11

I need your presence God! right now, I’m confused! I’m anxious! I need you! Help me to be able to gain wisdom and understanding to face this trials that I’m experiencing!

PS

This blog is kinda personal. If you’re reading this, I really need prayers! In our church, I am the “encourager” but I’m having a hard time encouraging myself at this time.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God” - Philippians 4:6

I’m claiming this verse Lord!!! I’ll surrender all my iniquities to you Lord!