EXCITED OR WHAT?

This term is going to be a total fun! J Hectic yet I know that’s all going to be worth it! J

Sundays are really awesome! It’s really so cool to be in the presence of God! More and more, I’m learning to be dependent to God! Well, I guess that’s one secret of worship leading; practice and rehearse the songs, devote your time to God and leave everything to Him! Don’t ever be distracted by selfish thoughts and stay humble as you are! I’m beginning to grasp the presence of God everytime I’m worshiping and that’s a good indication of a growing Christian! J

This term is really going to be a tough one! I can’t believe that’s it’s already September! Time itself is really fleeting rapidly. It’s only 6 months to go before graduation day and I’m only 4 terms away from that! Yeah! The anxieties are still there but I really learned a lot in terms of “Trust and Choice”. Worry isn’t part of the Christian routine any longer (just like what I shared in my recent post). God’s promise is a lot bigger than the anxieties that I have! (c’mon!J).

In school’s calendar of events, this week will mark the start of our final term this semester! I have a lot more studying to do considering the fact that the topics in Medical-Surgical Nursing includes Oncology and Endocrine System. I also have to read more of Rizal’s works and lifestyle and finish Chapter 1 to 3 of my thesis. Duty on Medicine ward is going to be a tougher one since the Ultimate Head Nurse is back! (From Pediatrics Ward)J. Looks like it’s going to be hectic term for me!

Busy days are really part of being a BSN Student! From the start of this course, I already felt the pressure! Right now, I’m still under pressure but am more excited than before! 6 months to go and a new chapter is waiting to unfold. J My future will depend on the things I’m doing today. So as of now, I’m going to apply what I learned from last week’s journey, my CHOICE is to TRUST God everything! I’ll do my part leave everything to God! J

DO NOT WORRY

The past few days that pass is really encouraging! Though I am in my anxious state, God is still the ultimate source of encouragement! God has really proved his sovereignty over all things here on earth. God has been inspiring me with beautiful encouraging verses from the book of psalm (I encourage you to read this bookJ). I guess I was just worried with the things in the future! I got so caught up with the pressures which were results of my past that I didn’t even cry to God for help! Well, I learned my lesson and now, it’s time to move on! A while ago, as I was reading Chinkey Tan’s “Till debt do us part” (one of recommended books regarding MONEY MATTERS J), I encouraged by this phrase about “worrying” (GM J);

Worry never climbed a hill,

Worry never paid a bill,

Worry never dried a tear,

Worry never calmed a fear.

Worry never fixed a broken heel,

Worry never cooked a meal,

Worry never composed a song to sing,

Actually Worry never did a worthwhile thing

Most of the time, people tend to worry rather than trust God in their situation! I admit it; I’m one of those persons! But God is tellin’ us to stop worrying and learn how to trust and give every problem that we have to Him!

A month ago, my laptop’s charger overheated and was badly damaged. My mom did everything she could finding a charger in any stores in the mall but wasn’t able to find one. All my files were in my laptop including my Manuscript for my Case Presentation and my Chapter 1 and 2 for my thesis. For weeks, I cou ldn’t do anything but explain to my Instructors what happened to my laptop which was the reason why I wasn’t able to comply with the requirements.

Guess what! Mom had it replaced in a mall in Manila where it was bought! J

Victory Christian Fellowship’s 3^rd South Luzon Regional Convergence is scheduled next week on September 10-11, 2010 at Victory Lipa. It ain’t easy to time find a time to be present on that event since our duty is SHIFTING. Well, there were favors! Thank God that im scheduled for a 6-2 shift! I’ll just skip the first 2 sessions and be present at the event on Friday night! But God’s plan and ways are higher than mine! I found out that there were no classes on Friday because of Ramadan. Just enough to be at the Regional Convergence! J

I still have a lot of problems at present! And these problems keeps on reproducing! Yeah! It will produce fears, anxieties and worries but hey! you’re a Christian now! God is always telling you to hold on and trust in Him in times of problems! Being a Christian doesn’t mean that you’ll have a problem-free life! It’s not that easy you know! God wants us to have a problem-proof life that whatever problems and trials we have, it’s all gonna be God-proof! J

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FEELING OF ANXIETY

This feels awkward! What I’m feeling right now is really an unusual thing for me. Well, siguro its because I’ve never felt this feeling before.

7 months more before graduation day and I feel like I’m not yet ready for it. Yeah, I’m studying! I’m doing my best to manage my time in everything but the result doesn’t make sense! My grades are somewhat deteriorating and I’m sitting here at the corner asking why?? L

The results of the July NLE Examinations was released last August 25, 2010. I was alarmed by the percentage of passers who passed the exam. 41.08 % or 4 out of 10 examinees passed the exam! Troubled by the result, I’m having worries and voices starts to knock in my head. Due to the results of my grade today, I might not pass the exam (Oh God! This is a lie!!)

One more thing. I’m having a hard time in discipleship. I can’t find a spare time for establishing victory group at school due to only 2 days of class. Most of my time are being used in a full load class on Mondays and Tuesdays, and my duty Wednesdays to Fridays. I know I shouldn’t think about this but I can’t help it. I’m a senior and soon, I’ll be leaving school without passing the baton to the next generation (Oh God! I need to get over this!). L

Am I just pressured? Or am I demeaned by unfruitfulness in some portion of my life?

I dunno why but all I know is that I’m anxious.

Is it a fact that I have to accept? Or is it an attack that I need to reject?

Oh God! I’m confused K

“You made known to me the path of life; you fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand” –Psalm 16:11

I need your presence God! right now, I’m confused! I’m anxious! I need you! Help me to be able to gain wisdom and understanding to face this trials that I’m experiencing!

PS

This blog is kinda personal. If you’re reading this, I really need prayers! In our church, I am the “encourager” but I’m having a hard time encouraging myself at this time.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God” - Philippians 4:6

I’m claiming this verse Lord!!! I’ll surrender all my iniquities to you Lord!