JUST WANT TO CRY IT OUT!!!

JUST WANT TO CRY IT OUT!!!

Right now, I really want to cry and cry out to God! I felt like I’ve been a useless being since I became this stagnant. For the past few days, I’ve been a disobedient lad. I’ve been reckless in decision making, impatient for simple things, and angry for stuffs that should been handled with patience. Sigh! I admit it, I came to a point of familiarity; I wanted a new encounter but am not doing anything to have that. It’s like I’m walking but has no direction at all.

I’m still thankful to God for pouring out His spirit in me! As I went home this afternoon; full of encouragement from the Victory Weekend (November 29 and 30), I came to a point of self-awareness. God made me realized how lax I was during the past few days. God told me that my attitude isn’t helping me to grow further to Him, instead, it’s driving me away to Him. As I opened my FB account, I saw a friend’s post of the song “THE ANTHEM” by PLANETSHAKERS:

(Lyrics)

Hallelujah! You have WON the VICTORY!!!!
Hallelujah! You have WON it ALL for ME!!!!
DEATH could NOT hold you down!!!!
YOU are the RISEN KING!!!!

I remember the first time I heard this song from a music team practice; I wanted to cry and cry in declaration of the lyrics of the song! This time, as I heard the song again, God gave me a quick revelation that made me cry even more! God has set me free from every bandage that the enemy has placed on me.

Ezekiel 36:26

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.

Lord, I’m sorry!! I need a new heart! Cover me with your blood once more and make me new! I’m crying out to you O Lord! I need you! Help me to overcome every situation I’m experiencing! You have won it all for me Lord, you have won the Victory!! I claim it! I declare it!

THE PRIZE OF MY OBEDIENCE….

“When God tells you to do something, no matter how the situation may be against it, just trust God with obedience”, that’s what I’ve learned from this experience. :D This is another testimony of God’s provision in terms of my finances! It’s really amazing how God provides especially in the midst of a very tough situation! The process wasn’t that easy but as I obeyed, God gave me an assurance that HE WILL PROVIDE!! :D

Day1 of Victory Weekend just ended today! It was really a refreshing moment and even though I have been part of it often, it still amazing how God makes every VW’s like it’s my 1^st one!! :D. 1week before the event, God told me to shoulder everything my follow-up would use for the event; that includes his VW Booklets and his Registration. God told me to give it as a gift to him as free, just like SALVATION; also a gift that’s free to everyone who receives it! But saving something has been a difficult task for me since my senior year came; photocopies, thesis, duties, other stuffs, waaaaaaaah! It’s so difficult to save at a time like this… but god wanted me to, for Jun-jun (my follow-up). So again, what I did was I prayed and prayed and gave my tithes and offering during our Wednesday youth service at VCF Lucban. Thursday came and it was so grateful to see how God moved through my finances.. :D but that wasn’t the case. Upon attending at VCF Lucena’s youth service last Thursday, God told me to give everything I have on my wallet to the offering tool; that includes my extra money plus the money I’m saving for the VW. Well, this time I tell you, I was excited to give for I know that God will truly provide (as what he did to me during EN2010). So the weekend came, and Monday; the date for our VW. Again, I was amazed on how I got the amount, it’s like God multiplied my allowance for that! Ahahaha :D. Not just that, I was also able to gain extra time in doing other school stuffs for our accreditation tomorrow plus the fact that I’m doing my thesis and other important school stuffs.

SOME PHOTOS FROM THE VICTORY WEEKEND; 1ST DAY:

registration time..... :))

praise and worship moment!! :))

You'll come, let your glory fall as you respond to us...... (music)

altar call.....

So I guess this is one side of the result of my obedience. God will not only provide you financially, He will also provide you with enough time to finish everything you’re doing. What He did to me, He will also do to you as you OBEY Him!! :D So at this point in time O Lord, you have my trust! I’ll obey you to the extent that I can Lord! Busyness is really on its peak, but I won’t worry! As long as I have you at my side, I’ll have the courage and the confidence to do it all!! :D

photo's taken after the DAY1 of VW... sayang I wasn't able to have a picture with jun-jun. He has to go home na agad eh! :D

Medith, Ate Grace, Adrian and Kl.. :D

MORE THAN ENOUGH

Just got out of the busiest first week of class ever! I thought since it’s the start of the semester, things would start easy. I guess I was wrong after all; it was then that I realized na “Graduating na nga pala ako” ahahaha :D. Since it’s the last semester, things would really be challenging!

Last October, I received a word from God to join this year’s Race For Life. With the help of Faith, I was able to register for the Race. For months, I was preparing financially for the race and the favor was really overflowing. Even though the semestral break came, I was able to save something for the Race :D. I was really excited to go to Manila :D. But the first week of class was harsh. THESIS, DEMO, LECTURES; waaaah! Akala ko ba first week ng class?? ‘Bat ganito?? K Not just that, my budget was cut to half due to my thesis and other school stuffs; PRINT, PHOTOCOPY, TRAVEL, waaaaaah! It’s as if something is hindering me from going to the race. K

I was optimist that God is going to provide everything that I need! The good thing was I finished everything by Friday afternoon, but what bothered me a lot was by budget for the whole weekend. My budget of 1,500 was cut to half (so 750 na lang yun + 20.00 = Php770.00) and I was planning to extend my stay till Sunday. I was really in a mixed emotion back then, I wanted to cry out of fear and anxiety but I know God has a better reason for this. What I did was I prayed while walking in the isle at school with my things; because of financial crisis, my common sense doesn’t want to go to Manila. In my mind, I’m thinking; “huh? I’ll go pa din? 770 na lang money ko, 210 ang fare going to Manila, 420 ang back and forth.. 350 for the whole weekend?? Will I survive?” But God is tellin’ me to! LET YOUR YES BE YES and you NO BE NO. God is above everything so He will be able to sustain your needs all throughout the weekend so DO NOT WORRY! I was still undecided then, sabi ko na lang kay God, “Lord, give me a sign (hahahaha).. I dunno what “sign” it is, but you’ll let me know”.

As I walk to the gate, I saw a jeepney going to Sta. Cruz, Laguna waiting for passengers. Immediately, I rushed into the jeepney without even worrying about tomorrow. God wanted me to go, I need to follow Him! From Lucban (where I’m studying) to Laguna to Manila, I travelled….

PHOTO COURTESY OF:

Erica Faith Andres and Ellis Ben Joseph Cruz

I was able to be a part of Race for Life 2010 (had some snapshots after the event). I even stayed at Victory Pioneer the whole afternoon and were able to extend till sunday and attended at Victory Makati!! :D

The whole week was a blessing in disguise. It was really a weekend to remember! I was able to maximize my stay and was able to extend till Sunday morning! I was blessed on how I see some friends from Pioneer as they grow more with their relationship with God. I was also encouraged upon meeting new friends from Pioneer and Makati! I’m more excited to see them growing more to God! :D God wanted me to go because He wants me to realize something! Everything that happened was a test of TRUST and if I hadn’t trusted God on this one, I think I wouldn’t be able to write this blog not experience His provision on this situation!

By the way, when I returned to Lucban, I only had 3 hours of travel due to Pacquiao’s fight! I also realized something behind that, “Our travel will be smooth once we obey and trust God ALL THE TIME”. Not just that! I was able to save Php20.00 from the entire weekend! God is really great! That makes me wanna love Him more!!!

I REALLY HAD EVERYTHING MORE THAN ENOUGH!

WHATTA SEM! :D

“Pass your papers! And then we’ll check!”

as verbalized by our Clinical Instructors in Medical-Surgical Nursing. Wohoo! This is really is it! The end of this semester! The break that everyone’s talking about! The thing that everyone’s waiting for! It’s finally here!

This semester really brought up something new to me! “Akala ko,magiging matagal ang isang semester para sa ‘kin, mabilis lang pala talaga!”. Is it because of the fact that Senior year is really a busy year? Or was it because time is just fast enough that five months have already passed. lol. NEVERMIND!.. After all, it has really been a fast semester for me! To tell you the truth, I really can’t contain everything that happened this sem! Every month had its own story! Every week had its own unique moment. Right now, all I can say is "Thank you God for making this semester a great one!"

JUNE

The start of Senior year! There was a huge change that happened! ENCM is now LIFEBOX!! Cool! As the org adapted its new name, new things are also expected to come!

Before the month ended, we were given the privilege to have a Making Disciples Training with Pastor Ryan Tan! It was a great opportunity that God has given us to learn and be challenged to Go and Make disciples!

Ptr. Ryan Tan (Ubelt), Lyan Lopez (Lucban), Sheldon Silva (Ubelt), Paul Herrera (Caloocan)

and Gabby; our youngest missionary! :D

Lucban youth with Sheldon Silva

so blessed to have Ptr. Ryan as our speaker

JULY

The most awaited event of the Season!! It’s time to come together with Every Nation Family! It’s now time for EN2010! “Kakaiba yung experience! Grabe! It was really an event to remember!”

the biggest reunion of Everynation Family across the globe..

Lucban youth with some of the international delegates

it was indeed a reunion! I missed hanging out with some friends from Pioneer and makati..

AUGUST

This month was full of fellowship and planning! I’m not sure what event we had during this month but it was awesome!

with Lucban youth (again! :D)

SEPTEMBER

Who can forget the 3^rd Leader’s Convergence at VCF Lipa. The 2 day event was a very memorable event for me knowing that there, I heard God’s call (for fulltime?) well, maybe! All I know is that during that time, God made me raise my hand and joined the 33 other South Luzon Leaders for the Alter Call! J it was so memorable that I couldn’t thank God enough! It was the starting point a “realization” that “DISCIPLESHIP is a lifestyle!” It’s not just the fulltime who are obliged to do the work but us also! It made me see the picture of a dying generation that this world is producing. They need someone who will tell them that “EVERYTHING is meaningless if it’s not for JESUS”.

OCTOBER

October is a great month! I love this month very much! Even though it is the busiest month, it’s also one of the coolest month ever! J. And a memorable month too!. J It’s the month where LIFEBOX’s first LIFE SEMINAR at SLSU took place! The 2 ½ hour seminar was a blast! We were so blessed with the feedback from the attendees! This marked the start of the big harvest! The start of a near revival! Next to that, our last 3 youth services were full of God’s presence! I’m so blessed to be in this team working with my co-leaders!.

I think right now, I’m focusing myself more on discipleship than on the music ministry! J. For years, I’ve been praying for a Life Group despite my 2 day class and finally, I was able to establish one this semester! Despite the fact that this month is the busiest month in my nursing life, it also became the month where i got the vision of “making disciples”. “Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na God is using you as an instrument for others to know him more”. I think, this is the most exciting part of being a Christian, seeing others following Christ through your supervision. Don’t get me wrong, God is the one making us grow more, but isn’t it exciting na “yung taong wina-121 mo, nag-ggrow na din kay God”. Exciting!

To some, it might be the end, but for me, it’s just the beginning! “Nabitin talaga ako”. I guess that what God wants me to feel, to be excited for next semester’s harvest! 5 months to go and it’s graduation day! I know next sem will be a fast one too! But I’m more excited to see what God is going to do in Lucban next semester! In Decemeber, Victory Lucban is finally going to be launched as one of Victory's provincial church! (can’t wait for that). As a graduating student, I think next sem is going to be another busy semester for me! But hey! That ain’t gonna make me busier at all! Yeah I’ll be busier, but I’ll have more time with God! That’s a promise!

LAST WEEK OF SEMESTER

I think I’ll be having sleepless nights again! The countdown is really getting in my nerves! 5 days to go and this semester is over! Well, this is really the part where things get exciting. Imagine after this weeks, I’m only 1 semester away from my diploma. But the pressure also gets tighter as the finish line tapers its way. Aaaarghhh! I have a lot of stuffs to do, things that are need to be accomplished and exams that needs to be taken before this semester end. I think I’ll be friends with coffee again for this week .

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13

Lord, I’m giving it all up to you! I can’t do it alone! Help me finish it all this week! :D

THANKFUL :)

For everything that happened this semester, “sa lahat ng favors, problems, trials, breakthroughs; basta lahat ng nangyari ngayong semester” I’m really thankful and greatful that God didn’t let me face and finish these things alone! I’m so glad that God provided me with people whom really encouraged me a lot! Well, I can’t really do things that I’ve did alone, but with the help of these people, I’m very proud to say that I DID IT! J

First is my DO HARD THINGS BOOK

Okay! This isn’t a person! But it helped me a lot this whole semester! This phrase has been a part of my daily life since last summer when a friend of mine handed me this book for me to read it (Thank you so much Krystle Jove Yague of Victory Pioneer J). I’m also very happy that after I read that book, by doing the same thing Krystle did, some of my friends we’re also encouraged from my book as they read it! Having my duties, finishing my thesis, studying, having life groups and attending services are all hard things for me, but thru this book, I realized that I can do it all with proper time management! :D

Parang sa studio tayo nag photo shoot :D

During the 26th Candlelighting, Capping and Pinning Ceremony

namiss ko to! Promise :D

NIGHTINGALE CHOIR FAMILY

I had fun everytime we’re having our practice! Let’s all keep this up till next sem! Sad nga lang na during the last 2 months, we weren’t able to meet up pero hopefully next semester (hindi kasi ako umaatend ng flag ceremony), we’ll be back in line again! Thank you for helping me realize that as long as I can manage my time wisely, its okay to stay late for Choir practices. J

Group Picture :D

with our Clinical Instructors :)

coolest picture with dutymates ever!

My DUTYMATES!!! J

I’m always in total fun working with you guys especially during our duties! It’s always an environment full of learnings and new experiences! I’m excited for next sem na! You guys are one big encouragement that helps me a lot especially in pursuing this course! J

eating time with some friends from VCF Dasma, VCF Lipa and VCF Siniloan

After the Leader's Convergence

SOUTH LUZON YOUTH! J

The Leader's Convergence last September 10-11 at VCF Lipa was a blast! It was a 2 day conference which was filled with fun, fellowship and learnings :D

It was so encouraging to see different people from different Victory Churches in South Luzon doing the same mandate which is to “Honor God and Make Disciples”

Even as I see their profiles at FB and their group messages, It really gives me encouragement! :)

Awwwww.. My 19th Birthday :)) with Faith Andres and Will Cruzana from VCF Makati

Missed bowling! :))

Some Friends from VCF Pioneer last May 2010 after the Leader's Camp

With Paulo Malit from VCF Pioneer and Faith

During the World Conference last July at SMX Convention Center

with some friends from Victory Pioneer

FRIENDS THAT ARE JUST A FACEBOOK AND PLURK AWAY!J

Yes! They encouraged me a lot! As I see you guys grow and mature thru blogs, pictures and even wall posts, these encouraged me and inspired me a lot to live everyday with excitement!

Last June 20, we (Rachel Ricaro, and Cris Gandia) celebrated Ronnie Quesea's Birthday

(from VCF Lucena)

With VCF Lucena men last convergence.. They are growing I tell you :)

Some of VCF Lucena and Lucban's finest youth leaders

VICTORY LUCENA PEOPLE J

IMY all! J My first spiritual family! Even though I’m at Lucban right now (hahaha para namang ang layo layo ng Lucban sa Lucena.. J), you guys encourages me a lot! When I attend youth and Sunday service there, I can see the growth every time I come there! J Continue to grow more!

VCF Lucban youth with Pastor Ryan Tan from VCF UBelt, Pastor Paul Herrera from VCF Caloocan and Sheldon Silva from VCF UBelt for "Making Disciples Seminar"

bago kumain :)

kelan nga ba to?? :))

VCF Lucban youth last convergence with Jenny Ramirez from VCF Lucena :)

After the L.I.F.E seminar at SLSU Audiovisual Room

LUCBAN PIPOL; LIFEBOX AND VCF LUCBAN! J SYEMPRE!

It’s such a great opportunity to work with you Guys! Let’s all keep this up till my last semester in SLSU L I have one semester left for doing the “Campus Work”. Let’s all be excited for next semester’s harvest!!!

Thank you for making this semester a fruitful one! Without you guys, I dunno how this sem turned awesome! :D