EVERYTHING’S DIFFERENT NOW

Written: June 14, 2010

Senior Year is finally here! And so, the countdown begins! :D. I’ve been really waiting for this moment since elementary pa, but I didn’t realize na this is really is it na pala :D. “Minsan nga, sa sobrang bilis, I’m really asking myself kung nananaginip lang ba ako, o talagang mabilis lang ang oras (haha)”. Well, time is really fleeting so fast (As in sobrang bilis talaga)! “Para ngang kahapon lang, I just spent my senior year @ Quezon National High School and now, I’m a senior again”.

Its day 1 of classes tomorrow! It’s my first day as a Senior (naks!) not to mention, I am now one of the eldest people in school (haha). I am also 10 months away from Graduation Day and a few steps away from reaching my profession as a Registered Nurse. As I recall my past years from elementary days till now (drama! :D), I came up to an assumption that “Everything’s Different now”. Some things really aren’t the same and will never me the same anymore.

Although it’s just the first day of class tomorrow, I’m really in a mixed emotion right now. I am excited in the same time anxious for this semester. I have made my priorities and am currently praying not to be distracted with it throughout the whole year. I decided that I’m going to prioritize God first although it’s my desire to excel in my studies. I believe naman na God will give me the desires of my heart once I delight in Him first (Psalm37.4).

I decided to help in the ministry here in Victory Lucban rather than in Victory Lucena. It has been a year since the church was established and I know that I need to volunteer in this church rather than in Lucena. I’m really excited for more this year! :D I think I’ll be focusing in the music team as well as in Discipleship. I am also excited for LIFEBOX this year! Although the name has changed from ENCM, the vision and the ways are still the same. I am praying and believing for a great harvest this year as ENCM-SLSU and ENY-PSL turns to LIFEBOX! :D

Get yourself ready! Stand up and say to them whatever I command you!.... (Jeremiah 1:17)

I am all geared up for this semester! :D Though I am anxious, I am in faith that God is going to be with us as we reap the harvest this school year! :D Everything is really different now and I need to set priorities! :D

Everybody's Calling

I've read Matthew 28 a lot of times. Well in fact the vision marked on my head, all the time! But I guess that's reason why until now, it still remained as a VISION, because it only MARKED ON MY HEAD.

Sharing the word has been really a burden to me since I became a Christian. Yeah, for some reasons, I know Christ, I know He loves and I know He has a great purpose for my life but somehow I just can't share the gospel! Get it! I just can't.

For months, I have been praying for boldness and for courage to share Jesus to my friends, but still, I end up standing in the corner doing nothing. I know that there's a big harvest out there and is just waiting for a worker to reap it but I still can't do it. It's like I'm missing the whole Christian point here. "Every Christian is called to make disciples", yet I'm claiming here that I'm a Christian but does nothing at all to advance God's kingdom. This is ridiculous!

Going back to the basics, God's greatest commandment is to "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind" (Matthew 22:37). This is the first and the greatest commandment. However, God's second commandment is like this: "Love your neighbor as yourself" (Matthew 22:39). Then, I realized what was lacking. I wasn't passionate with people, I was just living like a selfish pagan with no care for the lost people. I have the faith, I have the capabilities, but I don't have the love for people.

The starting point of discipleship is LOVE for the young people

This is what I'm lacking at all! I just value God but am not valuing what God values.

I think I'm feelin' it now. The burden for people who has not received Christ in their lives, I do feel it! Discipleship isn’t just a FULLTIME-thing, it's everybody's calling

For a long time I have kept silent, I have been quiet and held myself back

But now, like a woman in childbirth, I cry out, I gasp and pantIsaiah 42:14

Its kinda God who is speaking in this verse, but I want it to be my personal cry-out to God. I cry out for more of him in to my life! I want to b immersed and be saturated in His presence more and more! I want to be used y God as a witness not just to Jerusalem but to the ends of the earth as well, starting in my own land. I don’t care what will be the people's response, as for me, I'm more concern in sharing the Jesus Christ to everyone! :D

I don't have any regrets of the years that have been wasted. I'll forget the past and focus on the present. I'm a senior college student now, I should really make my last year in school a fruitful one.

Every Christian is called to make disciples. No one is excused for that! :D

Cry in my Heart

There's a cry in my heart
For your glory to fall
For your presence to fill up my senses

There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper

Could you take me beyond
Could you carry me through
If I opened my heart
Could I go there with you

For what do I have if I don’t have you Jesus
What in this life could mean anymore
You are my rock and you are my glory
You are the laughter of my head

If I could have a theme song for this week, I think this would be the song that I'll pick. It seems like after everything that happened this past few days; this chant has been really the cry of my heart. As I listened to the song, I couldn't help but thank God for everything. Over and over, I kept on asking myself this passage from the song:

For what do I have if I don’t have you Jesus?
What in this life could mean anymore

Then I just came with this realization; I couldn't imagine my life if I didn't gave it up to Jesus. I couldn't imagine myself living a single day without a purpose. I am so glad that I met a God who has a big heart and I'll be forever thankful to Him for making me what I am today. :D

I love the lyrics and the melody of this song! But most importantly, I was amazed its great message. The whole song itself is kinda my prayer today; for God to fill me up with His presence and for a desire for more of Him into my life!!!

I know there'll be problems. I know there'll be attacks from the enemy. But one thing I know and am sure of; that "in times of war and famine, God will keep me safe" (Job5:20 CEV).

I love you God! You are everything to me! Apart from you I can do nothing :D